An ode to 방탄소년단 (Bangtan Sonyeondan)

An ode to 방탄소년단 (Bangtan Sonyeondan)

BTS cover- Guchchism

(Disclaimer: This isn’t exactly ‘ode style’. But yeah… ☺ Until and unless it is written from heart, everything is fine ☺ )

This blog is dedicated to the most special, the most precious, the most adored, the most nurtured, and the most treasured gems of my life. I love them more than I love most people in my life. The one and only-bangtan sonyeondan ( we know them as BTS) because it is a special day today! We are six years old! 6 years old!


 Sengil chhuka ham nida

Sengil chhuka ham nida

Sarang haneun Bangtan sonyeondan

Sengil chhuka hamnida



What a journey it has been! Roller Coaster ride would be an understatement. Oh my god! When I look back to the days, hundreds of thoughts and emotions run through my mind. It is amazing how much we have grown! I have learned a lot from them.

It was after the Gorkha earthquake rattled Nepal, when I came to know about BTS. While going through the Twitter and Youtube hastags regarding Nepal earthquake for some news, I came across this 19 seconds video on BangtanTV (BTS’s official Youtube channel). I watched that video. I didn’t know who they were but video was so thoughtful. I was curious who were they. And given the inquisitive soul, the curious mind that I am, I copied that exact Hangul from Youtube to Google, and came to know that they were musicians/singers/composers. 

The first ever song I watched was Haruman (Just one day). Haruman is still my favourite song. I don’t know why that song so underrated! It is such a catchy song.

bts haruman

And then the next day, I watched another video, then another video, then another, then another, and the cycle continued. I was already into Korean dramas since forever but, I was never into Korean music. And then, BTS happened to me!

2015 to 2019. It has been an unforgettable journey. If I have to describe BTS in one word, it would be “Therapeutic”. BTS for me is much more than any therapy in this world. So, besides making me genuinely genuinely happy, they have also taught me a lot

So, on the occasion of 6th birthday, here are the top 6 things among zillion others that I have learned from BTS.


  1.   Never let your inner child die!

Everyone has a child in them but as we grow up, the ‘wanderer’ child gets lost somewhere inside us because of the chaotic world, of course. When things go haywire, when things start overwhelming you, when problems arise and you need someone to lean on, rather than seeking happiness in the outside world, just look inside you, the child in you will be screaming “hey buddy, I’m here “.  bts-sunflower-cover The inner child makes you happy and assures you when things go out of order. So never let your inner child die is what I have learned from them. Else, why would anyone appear as these cute sunflowers at the airport?   They looked adorable, by the way.   


  1.   It’s okay to cheer for yourself

This is something I learned from our worldwide handsome. It is okay to cheer for yourself. And that not only cheers yourself but also the people around you. Remember? When seokjin oppa cheers for himself, or praises himself (like in a good way) he indirectly lightens up the mood of other members as well. That is how I see this. And in life in general, not everyone will cheer for you. There will be times when we have to walk some paths on our own, where you will be the one cheering for yourself. Of course we will meet people on the way eventually but that first step is always hard to take. So cheer for yourself when it comes to your passion even if no one is doing it for you. In the end, it is about happiness.


  1.   Be true to yourself

 15 people see me as 15 different person. Why? Because they have certain expectations from me to act a certain way. Like the way they want or the way they are comfortable with. But I am who I am. Am I making sense here? What I mean is, certain people want to mold you in certain ways. different people will try to turn you into a different person as per there comfort. in the process When we try to become someone we are not we lose our essence. We run away from ourselves. We start comparing ourselves with other people. I have wanted to become someone else my whole life because I always felt I was good for nothing . But now, I am who I am, I won’t change for anyone. It is for you deal with it 😀 I have also learned to own my mistakes. That is another development since last year.   


  1.   Helplessness vs Hopelessness

If being helpless feels bad, being hopeless feels worst. Now this goes way back to the reason why this podcast exists, which I am yet to reveal, but back then when the personal circumstances were worse, hope was the only thing that we had. We kept moving forward because of that slightest strand of hope. Hope provides will power to move ahead in life. Also, that is when we learned difference between both.

bts first daesang

  1.   Be grateful and keep going

We know  all the major stadium concerts were sold out within an hour- Wembley, Metlife, and Rose Bowl to name a few. They are Grammy nominees , billboard top artists, top groups, and many other awards. Despite Billboard, Grammy, NASA space playlist and what not, they are still so humble, and so down to earth. They are still as RAW and REAL as they were six years ago. Practicing gratitude is something I have learned from them. Grateful for everything.


  1.   Together we can.

 Team work makes the dream work and just being there for each other during thick and thins, learning from the situation and moving ahead together is another lesson to learn from BTS.

6 lessons on 6th birthday. I know I can write a novel on this but let’s keep it simple and short and sweet.

I have always wanted to cheer this out loud but never got any chance 😀 #relatable # poor army #me!

Guys ready?

Let’s chant it together. 1 .. 2 .. 3… Go

Kim Namjoon

Kim Seokjin

Min Yoongi

Jeong Hoseok

Park Jimin

Kim Taehyung

Jung Jungkook


Aee… we did it! On that note, I will take your leave. Keep smiling, keep shining, and keep spreading happiness.




It was not meant-to-be, I guess

It was not meant-to-be, I guess

Disclaimer: I am no relationship expert. This is solely based on my experience. Also, I have just started writing so kindly excuse the grammar ☺


He was the only male figure in my life, besides my dad. The only male I had ever trusted other than my dad. I do have cousins but none are really close to me. I had never dated anyone. I have never had any boyfriend because I thought these feelings would distract me from my track. I had an invisible wall built around me and everyone knew that they should not cross it. I was happy in my own world.


One fine day, I met him. Despite trying so hard to maintain distance and mind my own business, I would get pulled towards him. Just how magnet pulls iron! And that butterflies-in-tummy- kinda feeling, the skipping of heartbeat. Phew! Oh good lord! Do you know this feeling? Can you relate to what I am trying to say? Even bodi ko tarkari tastes yum when you are head over heels in love. Everything felt so beautiful back then. I used to forget all the bad memories from the past when I was with him. I was happy as the feeling was so new to me.

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The three-year-long “relationship” ended. We parted ways. I was standing at the crossroad for five fucking months hoping for things to get sorted and him to return. While typing this I remembered how I used to cry for days missing him. ‘effin hell.

Then, I finally realised I was no longer a part of his life (and vice versa). I finally accepted the fact, collect the shattered pieces and moved on. It took me one year to get over him. ONE. ‘EFFIN. YEAR.

Oh god, I remember (while typing this) how I used to listen to ‘devdas-level’ sad songs. I laugh about it now but, the feeling was suffocating back then.

Chillax guys. That was just a phase in my life ☺☻


While going through all these, I learned five important lessons. I want to share it with you. The points can be interrelated though.

Let’s start from the basic:

  1. Communication is the key. Relationships flourish through communication. Most of the time we assume our partner knows everything about the relationship and the feeling. But honey, you are wrong! He is no ‘antaryami’ to read your mind. So, stop assuming everything like an Economics student, and have a proper conversation. Just speak your mind. Else you will be keeping your partner in the loop. Having a conversation is important, but what is also equally important is listening.

Dear men, why are you ignorant about text messages?? Oh gosh! That’s so annoying.

Do develop the habit of replying to text messages. And, if you have something important to tell to your partner or have any doubt, talk to him/her in person.


  1. Transparency helps sustain your relationship in the long-run. It feels so annoying when you do not know what the other person actually feels/thinks about you. This might make you vulnerable but, LACK OF TRANSPARENCY makes us insecure and we end up being indecisive about the relationship. So, just tell the other person what you think, how you feel, and stuff like that.


  1. Where do you stand in his life? This is one of the most important questions you need to ask yourself. Do you feel prioritised in the relationship? When the bond starts growing gradually, it is really important to know where you stand in his life. Guys, stop giving mixed signals. Either you are into him/her or you are not.


  1. You are no longer a secret. When someone truly loves you, he is not hesitant about mentioning you to (at least) one of his closest persons. That person can be sibling, cousin, best friend, or even mother/father. But, he does tell about you to one of his closest persons.

Do not lose faith in love. Sometimes it is necessary to hit the rock bottom to start anew. But, no matter what do not lost your faith in love. Better days are ahead.


Dear 2018, surprise me ☺♥

Dear 2018, surprise me ☺♥

Dear 2018 Yayy, 2018 is finally here. Happy New Year to all of you and Happy ‘Tithi wala’ Birthday to me 😉

I don’t know about you guys, but I am super excited to know what 2018 holds for me. Well, I have skipped the year 2017 in my head. If I have to narrate it like a daily soap queen, I would say I was in coma for the whole year (not literally though) and I just woke up this morning to welcome the year with open arms.


I have always underestimated myself. So, this year I will believe in myself and my dreams. Someone just recently told me that never think you are any less than anyone. Everybody is special and so are you. So, everyday I stand in front of the mirror and say “I am no less than a magic’ just to build up my confidence 😀


As always, I have made a few list of the things I will definitely do in 2018. Spreading smile and positivity is my main agenda this year.

Let’s get started:

solo 1. Go on a solo trip If you know me, I am always surrounded by friends or family. I always have at least one person by my side because I can’t stay alone, I can’t go anywhere alone if I am not used to the place and ambiance. I get scared. That’s me. But this year, I have challenged this shy and reserved person in me and decide to go out of my comfort zone and go on a solo trip. Yayy!

places 2. Visit at least 5 new places This year I will visit at least five different places of Nepal. Pokhara tops the chart here 😀

YTLogo_old_new_animation.0 3. Start my own Youtube channel I have been thinking of starting my own channel for quite sometime now. I already have five scripts ready but I was just too lazy to shoot. This year I will definitely convert those scripts into a comic video 😀

opinion 4. Be vocal about my opinions Owing to misunderstanding, last year I had to face a lot of issues that I unintentionally said. What the heck! This year I will be very much vocal about my opinion & spread positivity.

katthak 5. Join a dance class That’s the only thing I am passionate about. Everytime I see someone dance so perfectly well on TV, I get jealous. I feel like crying when I cannot dance 😦 So, this year I will join a dance class. KATTHAK class probably.

[PS: If you guys know any good institutes please suggest 🙂 ]

makeup 6. Learn how to apply makeup Believe it or not, the last time I had applied a proper makeup with the foundation, concealer, eyeliner, kajal, blush, lipstick, …. was for my performance at a Parent’s Day event in school in Grade 4. Yes, that’s true. I still don’t know my skin shade for the perfect foundation. I still don’t know how to apply lipstick because I really don’t know where my lip ends and skin starts. But, I have finally learnt how to apply a pencil eyeliner after washing my face five times every minute though.

language 7. Lean a new language One language is never enough, they say. This year I will learn a new language. French/ Spanish/ German/ … I don’t know but I will.


8. Get a tattoo

I have been thinking of doing this for long but have not been able to gather the courage. This year I will get my arm tattooed. 🙂

9. Get a new hair cut & hair colour

This is something I will definitely do in 2018.

10. Family outing every month We have decided to go out for either lunch or brunch or dinner at least once a month. This is actually a selfish wish because I will get time to spend with my family 🙂 That’s why *cheers*

shopping 11. Buy something worthwhile every 3 months This is something I want to do every time my salary gets credited but I spend all my money on food. I am a big time foodie 😀 So, this time I will at least buy something worthwhile 😉

DIY 12. Learn a new DIY every month People say I am creative but I feel I am good for nothing. Ooops, sorry. I had promised myself I will not underestimate myself. So, to serve my mind, I have decided to learn a new DIY every month.

stepoutcomfortzone-5675dff78623bd68048b4569 13. Step out of my comfort zone Now that’s a challenge. 😀

comfort zone Btw, will I find love this year? ummmmm, I doubt 😀


So that’s about it. I wish you all a very happy new year. Thank you for reading this. I wish u have a great super awesome rocking year ahead.

Tatazzz for now.

Spread smile 🙂

2017 was #NotMyYear

If only I could make a movie on ‘My 2017’, it would have been a full on bollywood dramatic masala film, no less than that of Ekta Kapoor’s serial. I swear. Why is my life so dramatic? Why can’t I have a regular NORMAL day in my life?

2017 was crazy; #NotMyYear I would say. So much pain, suffering, misunderstandings, heartbreaks, broken friendships… and what not! Not even in my weirdest dream had I thought I would hurt people so much! 😥

Both personally and professionally, it was not my year. Though, THT Online happened to me, it has its own story. Let’s not rant the whole story now cause I want to remove it from my harddisk now.

I will forever remember the year 2017 as so many lessons learnt! Also, one major major learning was अफिस भन्ने चिज कहिल्यै पनि आफ्नो हुँदैन

यति भन्दै आफ्ना दुई शब्द यहीँ टुङ्ग्याउँछु।


The ‘Nepal Yatayat’ सफर

One gets to travel in every sex position in Nepal Yatayat. I wonder why the bus is always so crowded. 

I wish Kamadev would travel in Yatayat someday.
Instead of some thousands of positions, the deities would immediately increase the number to almost triple of what they had discovered then; just by observing the ‘hanging’ crowd and annoyed seated ones.

Sometimes I think, even if a vehicle company makes a ‘YATAYAT’ bus with length x width x height = 1,47,181 sq km, some 5/6 people would still be hanging at the entrance.

So today, after my office was over, I reached the Anamnagar chok and waited for the Yatayat to arrive. After 5 minutes, a bus stopped in front of me and luckily, nobody was hanging at the door.

I breathed a sigh of relief and got on the bus. It was still crowded. Do you know who are the luckiest people on Earth? No? Well, the ones who get a seat in the crowded Yatayat. And, I was never one of them 😀
The bus had just moved few seconds when 4/5 men got in.

Here in Nepal, we don’t have ‘bus station’. You never need one. Why? Because the bus driver stops the vehicle whenever you stretch your hand forward (and shake sometimes 😀 ).
So, one of those men stood beside me and the other one with his bag stood facing the opposite direction. I could feel his keyring (hung in the bag ) poking the back of my neck but didn’t bother.

I am the kind of person who hates even the edge of a cleanly ironed Men’s shirt poking me. No, no. I am not a lesbo (#noOffence , with all due respect to the LGBT community). It’s just that I have a really bad impression on men since childhood. I don’t trust them easily!

So, these four/five men got in. The situation was like that of gundruk khaadeko. One’s elbow was leaning on my left shoulder. The other’s was poking my right ears. I was pisses off but chose to say nothing.  And then there was this woman, who seemed to be in her late 40s. The side of my bag was ruining her hairdo. So she was constantly pushing my bag and looking at me with all the fireballs in her eyes. 

(ps: This is not related to abuse)

(Contd. )

💕 Kaash… 💕

This big bright Moon shining outside my balcony is making me nostalgic. I will forever cherish the memories 😊 Straight from my ❤

👇 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 👇

Kaash yeh waqt yehi ruk jaaye, yeh lamha yehi theher jaaye

Main samaa jaaun tujhme, tu mujhme samaa jaaye,

Na koi laqeer ho na koi deewar

Na koi umeed ho na koi sawaal

Main dekhu teri aakho main, 

aur saasain tham jaaye

Kaash yeh waqt yehi ruk jaaye

Main samaa jaaun tujhme, tu mujhme samaa jaaye … 💕

मैले बुझेको “औकात अनुसारको सपना “

मैले बुझेको “औकात अनुसारको सपना “

“औकात अनुसारको सपना देख्नुपर्छ”, भन्ने जतिको नराम्रो ‘ज्ञान’ मलाई संसारमा केहि लाग्दैन । यो भन्ने मान्छे भेटेको भए त म मज्जाले भाषण नै सुनाउथेँ होला ।

मैले बुझेको ‘औकात अनुसारको सपना’ भनेको त , कुनै मानिस / जनावरलाई सिमित लम्बाइको “औकात” नामक सिक्रीले बाँधेर, “ल जा, जे जे गर्नु छ गर्, उड्नु छ भने उड् , जे गर्नु छ गर” भनेर छोडीदिनु जस्तै हो । जति पंख फिँजाएर उड्न खोजे पनि, जति अगाडी बढ्न खोजे पनि त्यो “औकात” नामको सिक्रीले एउटा सिमित घेरा भन्दा बाहिर जान दिँदैन ; पंख फिजाएर उड्न दिँदैन , सागर सरि बग्न दिँदैन, हावाको वेग छल्दै कुद््न दिँदैन, न अगाडी बढ्न दिन्छ ।

मैले Forbes magazine ले समेत बिश्वको सबै भन्दा धनी व्यक्तिको सुचीमा रखेको,  विनोद चौधरीको आत्मवृतान्त पढेकी थिएँ ।

खै कुन चाहिँ पाँच तारे होटेल अगाडी उभिएर, “यो होटेल भित्रबाट कस्तो होला,” भन्दै त्यहाँ छिर्ने सपना बोक्थे रे! अहिले उनी त्यही पाँच तारे होटेलका शेयर धनी हुन्;  अरबौँमा खेल्छन् ।

वहाँ त एउटा मात्र उदाहरण हुन्  यस्ता थुप्रै हस्ती हरु हुनुहुन्छ जो Rags to Riches मा पर्नुहुन्छ ।

Bill Gates, J K Rowling, … अरु पनि थुप्रै हुनुहुन्छ । अनी मेरो  favourite Oprah Winfrey  पनि!

तर फेरी ‘सपनामा लगाम नलगाऊ’ भन्नुको अर्थ चाहिँ ‘खुल्ला छोडेको साँढे’ जस्तो हुने भनेको चाहिँ हैन है! यसको मतलब यो पनि हैन कि नराम्रो काम नै गर्नु पर्छ आफ्नो जिवन सुधार्न।  राम्रो काम गर तर सपनाको कुनै सिमा नराख ।  Never set boundaries for your dreams.